Hi, I’m Alejandro and I’m 23. I’ve decided to write because I need help. I’ll tell you a bit about myself. It’s embarrassing for me; I’ve never told anyone this before.
I’ve been addicted to pornography for about five years. Several times a day I fantasise and picture different scenes from porn. There are days when I have a night-time marathon: I lie in bed until 3 a.m. with my phone, browsing porn videos. I masturbate about once a day on average, sometimes more; less often now. Lately I’ve got into the habit that before I fall asleep I have to check which new videos have been posted on the sites, then I jerk off, then I fall asleep. After masturbating I fall asleep faster. It’s got to the point where I watch BDSM, cuckold and femdom videos, and I like them… Two years ago I couldn’t have looked at that. I used to fight it, and I managed up to three weeks without masturbating, but then it came back.
What gets me down is that I finish really fast, and I prefer masturbating because I have more control. I’m afraid of sex with a girl, because I think it would be over after a few seconds. On top of that, my current girlfriend is a virgin, and my experience is two failed attempts at intercourse where I couldn’t handle the pressure… I’ve been with my girlfriend for a few months, and she doesn’t know anything about this. We see each other at weekends. We only do petting with our clothes on, until orgasm. I lost my previous girlfriend precisely because of this habit, because I preferred satisfying myself by hand… I don’t want to make the same mistake, so I’ve decided to act and change my life.
From today I intend to stop masturbating and watching porn. And I have a question: is it true that frequent masturbation delays ejaculation during intercourse? How do you go from finishing in seconds to lasting longer? I think the fact that I finish so quickly is a big part of why I’m hooked on masturbation. I won’t lack motivation or determination.
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