I’ve been masturbating since I was 14. I’m 24 now. My story is like everyone else’s: years of watching porn and wanking. Recently I met a girl, fell in love, and I want to quit this for her. I’m exactly 47 days into my “recovery”. Though I’m not sure it still counts as that. My libido dropped after about a month. But when I’m with my girlfriend, I do feel attracted to her.
The thing is, on day 31 exactly we got intimate (she used her hand on me), exactly 8 days later the same thing, and yesterday we had actual sex. That was quite a moment. I had a so-so erection while we were touching each other. I should add that I don’t have much experience with sex and I’ve always avoided it, but with her I’d like to do it normally. I entered her, but I could feel my little guy wasn’t as hard as he is during, say, oral. Still, I managed to have intercourse; it lasted maybe half a minute (no surprise there). About 20 minutes later we tried again, this time from behind; it went better, although I finished after about 2 minutes that time too. Then we tried with her on top, but that didn’t work any more. It twitched, but when we started I couldn’t feel it at all and it dropped; no hat-trick for me :D After that it didn’t respond at all. That position was completely new to me and I couldn’t get my bearings, I didn’t know what I was supposed to do; maybe that’s why.
Now I’m wondering whether having sex with my girlfriend during this break from porn and masturbation affects the recovery at all. And since I had an orgasm, do I have to start the whole process over from the beginning? I have no idea how this is going to go.
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