I’m 24. I’ve had a problem with porn for many years; I won’t go on about how I’ve been watching since I was a kid.
A week ago my girlfriend and I wanted to have sex for the first time (neither of us had ever done it before, only oral and touching that brought us both to orgasm).
The setting was perfect, we’d warmed each other up, and my little guy was standing to attention. When I started putting on the condom I noticed him shrinking and getting smaller. He simply went limp on me. I tried to wake him up somehow, but I started stressing and nothing came of it. After a few minutes he came back a bit, but I wasn’t able to get him in; he was too soft and just kept “bending” (on top of that it was the first time, so he had to be hard to break the hymen). We didn’t manage it. Since then I’ve felt bad about it happening.
I’d got him used to me coming in three minutes to porn, and he was always hard then.
With oral he was usually hard too; a few times I didn’t come because he went soft, but those were isolated cases.
Could all of this be porn’s fault? That if he doesn’t get the firm grip of my hand and very strong stimulation (the kind I had while watching all sorts of videos, sometimes very hardcore, and harder as time went on), he goes soft?
I want to change this. I want to enjoy sex the way I enjoy the touching. I love my girlfriend very much, but I’m afraid we won’t even manage our first time because of me, because my little guy won’t get up, or will drop at that moment.
Today I’m starting my recovery. It’ll be hard, because sometimes I get so horny that the smallest impulse lands me on some porn site.
It will be tough, but I’ll manage.
I’ve even thought about trying some supplement or a pill before sex so that he stays hard, but I don’t know if that’s a good idea.
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